2009年10月20日
自從中秋之後都冇再寫blog了....因為情緒極度低落...連計劃左去好耐既high table都唔想去...唔想見人...只係想收埋自己....我真係唔想做既野冇人可以迫我....但佢地係背後話我放飛機...我真係好傷心...再一次用個心去對人....但人地唔會同樣咁對你lor...最後我返左band....雖然冇咩心機...但係同band友一齊真係好開心...佢地好真...唔會收埋收埋..因為大部份都係識左好耐ga la....
經過左一個星期...我始終想整個蛋糕比佢...亦都好想試下整呢種cake..所以決心做la...點知...唉...都唔係咪上天要測試我既決心....本來一早plan好買好哂材料...但一早起身...就連續落街買2次野....一開始整冇幾耐...當我pre heat個焗爐果陣....全屋跳掣...我好驚...呢d時候我次次都唔知可以點...咪打電話問ling求救lor...好彩...佢真係幫到手...之後我唔再用焗爐lu...因為feel到係佢出事...
第一次整完個mossue果陣..就知唔對路....why水汪汪既呢...唉...就知唔成功la....諗住是但雪完再睇下點...但諗諗下唔甘心...都要再整多次....今次ling已經係我屋企支持緊我la...好多謝佢...有個人陪係好既...但今次都窄窄地....仲要趕住d 時間攞比佢....雖然趙柱都話佢問人地時間果陣..人地問佢係咪受人指使...哈...都揚左la...唔爭在la....最後...唉....都係唔太凝固....要係個冰格度decorate....哈...好搞笑...包裝過後...都見得下人既...但估唔到佢收到果下佢話估唔到我地送蛋糕去lor....因為打比佢話比佢之去佢屋企果陣...佢都唔係咁老黎咁...anyway...加埋前2日寄份gift都送到佢手...我想做既都做哂la....舒服哂
10月13日-人生大事....我大學畢業la....終於係30歲前畢到業....要開始計劃將來la....好開心...同屋企人一齊過真係勁感動!好要努力d先得la!!!!
講番今日....我坐緊車去上堂果陣....不其然諗番...呢一年...由開始sent sms比佢同佢講"我好掛住佢"..而佢覆.."你玩野ar"果陣...真係歷歷在目..佢教我地篤波....開始...我返屋企搭緊車會搵佢傾電話....我做論文做到發DIN...SMS佢...佢會支持住我..到上年盲俠行我地傾住電話係街度搵對方....最後係條天橋接駁位見到...我仲從此改左返屋企路線...明明係個車站...但都要走去搭火車去大圍經上水走...果次好難忘...
跟住一齊去camp...一齊訓住聽歌傾計好開心...我其實唔想返去自己張床...但又好似唔好意思咁...哈...我知佢唔係好唱k...但佢之後都有去訓住聽我地唱....走果陣仲走去買朱古力...同埋輸賭邊條路去49x車站....
跟住有一日得閒....煮左個火鴨c蚊米拎去大圍比佢....
平安夜一齊過..係ling度一齊影相...好warm.....玩到好夜...佢問我去邊搭車...但佢唔順路冇同我搭...但後尾我走番去搭火車...想試下搵佢....點知佢仲未去到車站...
聖誕節夜...飲大左....同佢講住電話打的返屋企....佢話返去佢度近D...我真係想去搵佢GA..但第二日去行山..冇法LA...果晚好彩有佢....因為...我果陣真係好唔掂...返到去仲抱住個厠所嘔....
BOXING DAY...去左行南丫島....同LING係山頂位..大叫問佢係邊度...仲拍埋MOVIE....其實果日佢有同我SMS...一直個心都係佢度...夜晚..同GRACE走果陣...見到個HIGH左野既仔係街...我地報左警...我之後仲打比佢同佢講左一陣...但佢同D FD玩緊...冇阻佢LU...之後睇番佢D 相....我未試過咁酸LOR...
除夕....打左比佢...佢話有神秘節目...我就係山頂好凍好凍咁一直望住維港...原來果晚佢係維港AR...
之後..好似係 1月8號左右.約左佢睇戲....但佢話唔使買定飛...好都奇...最後買唔到飛...去左食飯...但食完個飯之後...感覺怪怪地....大家都靜左一排...跟住到廟街食團年飯....佢先比番個蚊米盒我...好耐冇見既感覺...可能果排成日同HUGO玩...感覺淡左...
到過年....我RECITAL...佢第二朝要跑馬拉松冇黎聽...我其實好想佢黎...但都知唔可以..因為佢要夠精神第二日跑...跟住就係阿敏個生日會度...開始同佢好似陌生左好多....佢又同第二D 人玩得好開心...果日..我決心停止....我仲同佢講...可唔可以攬下佢...佢呆左2秒...我當然冇咁做LA...果晚..同BAND友團拜飲大左...SENT左個SMS同HUGO話我好鍾意佢...哈...真係好對唔住....絕對係玩野的...
之後搞成左佢同ling....但我口痕...我唔想忍"門"住佢..同佢講左...我唔知有冇feel錯...佢好似有d失望...我真係估唔到ga...
到左3月..我地幾個走左出黎打邊爐...我好想整朱古力比佢....補番情人節冇送野比佢...hehe...哈...咁當然...唔可以咁揚la..咪個個朋友都有份la....咁當然...整比朋友仔食係我不嬲都好想既...估唔到佢收到果陣串我...仲咩唔到白色情人節先比佢ar...哈...我話...點比ar...佢話咪出黎食飯la...哈...之後就約左話出黎食飯...但好黑仔....果晚要tutor interview...overrun....我打比佢果陣...已經8點半....佢話唔出lu...我果陣..真係想死...一路搭車返屋企...一路喊....一路問點解係咁...自己做野有責任感唔岩咩...點解咁ga..
又過左一排...我見到個比卡超3d puzzle好想買比佢...最後買左....哈...兒童節果日送左比佢....見到佢面紅...好搞笑...果日..同趙柱上左佢屋企hea左一陣...夜晚ling同我搞surpise 生日dinner..我一時感觸...喊左出黎...果一刻..我唔知點解冇哂自信心...但好彩仲有班咁好既朋友係身邊..真係好感動...夜晚返屋企打左比佢...同佢傾左一陣...
到mc記生日party果日...同ling試緊妝...哈..我地叫佢買d野上去比我地食...佢死唔肯...又話遠又話咩...跟住我極速走左去佢度嚇佢...諗住話佢知可以好快去到佢到...咁當然嚇死佢la...哈...好玩.....佢仲叫我係佢個背包度拎我份禮物出黎...係面包超人証件套...好搞笑....好開心...跟住我地去左黃金度行左一陣...個感覺好似似曾相識咁...好耐之前同杜家賢都有呢個感覺..生日會玩得好開心....果晚阿健仲同埋佢送我返屋企...雖然係被迫既...但都冇所謂la...
記得有一日約左大家打羽毛球....果日同時係我去攞成績....我好想佢陪我去...但最後又唔知佢因為d咩冇去...我有d失望....好彩...佢同我去食拉面...好好食..我地仲食到遲哂到...好搞笑....
HUGO生日果晚.....我要陪個就結婚既FRIEND去試妝....但我果日突然好想搵佢...又知佢係灣仔聽講座...所以就發DIN走左去等佢....我一路等..我都FEEL到自己面紅哂...勁緊張...又驚MISS左...又驚佢見到我唔高興..最後比佢見到我...嚇死佢...但佢話唔陪到我..因為要去打波....所以我陪佢返左大圍....果次真係有D尷尬...去到大圍...佢叫我唔使落車...我係都要落...哈...諗番都覺得自己好煩...
之後...唔知係咪呢件事....佢冇咩覆我電話同SMS啦...冇法LA...唯有接受LA..
之後..我記得...我5月4號果晚...我仲諗緊不如搵日同佢講清楚...得唔得都好....諗住等6 月6日同ling做生日果 日同佢講....果晚我係ling度訓.(因為第二朝要做姊妹)..成晚冇訓....係度係咁諗....點知...第二日...就出現左個惡魔...將一切改變左...
個FRIEND結婚果日..識左B仔....SMS左幾日..佢已經好擺明車馬...我都覺得係咪又係時候要我放手呢....當然....後來....我同左B仔一齊LA...我有同佢講...佢可能又比我呢D 變得咁快既動作嚇親LA....我又比佢個壞印象啦....算啦...都有男朋友啦...我都要投入D....但漸漸發覺B仔好有問題...每當我同大家出黎玩再見番佢果陣...我都仲係覺得佢好好....有一次同花花做生日...打邊爐...我同佢夾埋同一條菜...佢講左句戲言.. 講咩唔太記得LA...我呆左....果一下...真係有D 心動...我就係咁GA LA..少少野都可以牽動到我....我太情緒化LA...
後來同B仔搞到好唔開心...我一直都有搵佢陪我傾偈....我果陣覺得...同佢做朋友係咪真係好過同佢表白之後...可能連朋友都冇得做?...我成日問自己呢個問題....我淨係覺得佢係我需要既時候陪我...我咁樣係咪擁有更多呢....我都知佢果陣辛苦GA LA...又要同我傾...又要陪VERY 豬...好似托兒所咁...
後來有一排...我想收埋自己...好耐冇搵D朋友...有一日....返緊工....我突然想打比佢....就打左....聽到既係佢講"你好耐冇搵我LA..."我好開心...後尾有一日約左佢同VERY CHU食飯....同佢一齊行一齊傾偈D感覺好好....後尾我地去半島隔離個新地標逛逛...都幾浪漫 GA...哈哈...
我一直搞唔清楚個種感覺係咩....由去CAMP果陣到呢一刻...我好想搵佢....我係緊張佢...但又冇D好強烈既FEEL...所以一直都唔知自己想點...有一次..我游完水去左佢度...佢借張床比我訓左一陣...我好想知自己會點...但最後..我係覺得好有好有安全感咁訓著左一陣....冇咩心跳感覺...跟住同佢一齊出去同LING食飯...好爽...之後我同佢同趙柱佢地2次一齊去深圳...直到第二次...我發覺大家又開始有D怪....我又好鍾意痴住佢...佢讚D 服務員姐姐我又有D 呷醋LA...但同佢既感覺真係好同步LOR..但中秋節果日佢咁...我都唔知佢做咩....係咪我做得太著跡...佢要保持距離丫....我個心係有意思姐...但當時真係冇諗多GA...SHIT! 就係咁樣...一年LA...
